A Pursuer of God...Really?

I've been thinking about the title of my blog...a pursuer of God. Does anybody ever really pursue God? Do I pursue God? I'd like to think that I do but more than likely the title of this blog should be "Ponderings of Someone Who Wants to Be a Pursuer of God."  It is my deepest desire to know God and be known by Him and yet so often I find myself hiding from Him instead.  Or in my deep selfishness, I pursue His blessings more than I pursue Him. I long to be like the Psalmist when he said, "Oh God you are my God, earnestly I seek you. My soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you in a dry in weary land where there is no water." I want Him to be my everything, my greatest desire, my complete satisfaction...and yet, most often, He is not. What I want in my soul wars constantly with what I want in my flesh.

While my pursuit of God may be flaky and sporadic at best, I am so grateful that God has pursued me. His pursuit of me is what makes me want to pursue Him. His love for me is what makes me want to love Him. I am overwhelmed with gratitude that He desires to be in a relationship with me and that I'm able to be in a relationship with Him because of what Christ did on the cross.

And so because of these things, I will press on in my pursuit (and keep the name of the blog, for now). The prayer of my heart is that God will continue to fill me with love for Him...that I will grow in my desire for Him, and that my pursuit of Him will be passionate and persistent. (WOW, that's alot of "P" words . . . future blog title...Ponderings of a Passionate, Persistent, Pursuer of God!)

~Cherie